Betrayed-Seconds

Those ten seconds when you realize that your lover has betrayed you. For lack of a good word, hereby baptized: betrayed-seconds. This is valid for ordinary people - like you and me - but also for superstars. Under the veneer of fame, superstars are of course also lovers too with all the ups and downs, sweet and sour of love.

Superstar Kate Bush wrote the song 'The Man with the Child in His Eyes' when she was 13 for her first boyfriend: 19 year old Steve Blacknell. (The song was recorded when Kate was 16.). A picture of Kate and Steve together:

Kate spoke about the song's background in a 1978 promo interview (source): "The inspiration for was really just a particular thing that happened when I went to the piano. The piano just started speaking to me. It was a theory that I had had for a while that I just observed in most of the men that I know: the fact that they just are little boys inside and how wonderful it is that they manage to retain this magic. I, myself, am attracted to older men, I guess, but I think that's the same with every female. I think it's a very natural, basic instinct that you look continually for your father for the rest of your life, as do men continually look for their mother in the women that they meet. I don't think we're all aware of it, but I think it is basically true. You look for that security that the opposite sex in your parenthood gave you as a child."

In 2010, Steve offered the original handwritten lyrics for 'The Man With the Child in His Eyes' for sale. Claiming that Kate was his first true love and that she wrote it for him. To this day Kate has never publicly commented on her first boyfriend's action.

Those betrayed-seconds that Kate realized that Steve had betrayed her and made public what was meant for her-and-him (say: us) only. Those betrayed-seconds when she realized that money has become more important than love for Steve too. What happened to the child in his eyes? Those betrayed-seconds when she realized that his words of "you're my true love, I am yours and I'll never hurt you" were a lie in retrospect. It must have hurt her a lot. 

P.S. Source picture: here. Source lyrics: here. 

P.P.S. I know that I am an uber-Romantic. I believe in being courteous in love. Some things are 'not done', no matter how angry or disappointed you are. Some things are private and can't be bought. Some things are for us and us only.

They Are Missing the Point!

Darkly despondent. Goofily exuberant. Grand folly of a record. English magic. Biggest stylistic jump in Kate Bush's career. 

Many adjectives on KT's CD 'Aerial' (2005) but so ... meaningless. Michael Bonner even says of the first disk ('A Sea of Honey') - in UNCUT. Kate Bush. The Ultimate Music Guide (2015 Issue 3) - that it's a collection of unconnected songs. Unconnected!

Is "everyone" still missing the point that Kate Bush is a mystic on her CD 'Aerial'? Someone who reaches beyond good and evil? Beyond sky and sea? Beyond music and silence? Beyond dead or being alive?

P.S. I wrote about this on July 26th, 2009 'Kate Bush. Mystic on 'Aerial'. Invitation to be nondualistic'

Beminnen en bemind worden

To be honest. I'm fascinated by the definition of happiness. There are so many definitions! I guess my first wonder was born when I was eight years old - or am I idealizing myself on this? Remember what I wrote before? "What a bore is life and how predictable: to be born, live and die." This is what I told my maternal grandma at the age of eight after reading next week's TV-guide completely. She looked at me with a little, mysterious smile and said "Yes, you are right". I was old at the age of eight. The strange thing is this feeling never really left me. In retrospect my opinion back then was only a part of homo sapiens' life truth. In life, it's not about milestones, it's about all the days in between."

Next to that, I keep on puzzling on what people Say and how they Act. Sometimes the gap is so big and obvious. Why are they fooling themselves? Do they really think that no-one observes the 'Say-Act-Gap'?

Last week in my newspaper there was an interview with Kate Bush. Kate shared her definition of 'perfect happiness': "(Giggling) The point of these questions come down to this  'Loving and being loved'. That's what all of us want."

I can't tell if there is a 'Say-Act-Gap' for Kate. She could have referred to the image in her song 'Symphony in Blue' that she is needed for the symphony. This is taking care for procreation. She did not. She could have talked about her moment of enlightenment she refers to in her song 'Somewhere in Between'. She did not.

It's down to earth for her. Kate loving and being loved. That's all. Husband? Secret lover(s)? God(s)? Her son? Parent(s)? Friend(s)? Or ...?

In Dutch it reads "Beminnen en bemind worden". Was she referring to 'loving and being loved'? Or 'making love'? She was giggling! Or referring to both? 

P.S. Source: NRC weekend, Maart 2012, page 66.

Kate Bush. Mystic on 'Aerial'. Invitation to be nondualistic

To be honest - I always feel a bit uncomfortable sharing this side of me - I think Kate Bush is a mystic. Someone who knows by direct experience that the world is 1 and nondualistic.

When I listen to her CD 'Aerial' and look at the booklet and CD-itself I know she is a mystic. Why? Because every song is an invitation to us to look and see that the world is not (a) black or (b) white but ... something in between.

DETAILS

(a) CD - SEA OF HONEY

1. King of the mountain. Elvis (a) dead or (b) alive.

2. Pi. Putting (a) a number to it every time or (b) infinity.

3. Bertie. ?

4. Mrs Bartolozzi. Your (a) shirt on washing line or the (b) real you.

5. How to be invisible. (a) Visible or (b) being invisible.

6. Joanni. Joan of Arc (a) married woman or (b) god inspired woman with no ring on her finger; who is that girl? (a2) Joan of Arc in song or (b2) Kate Bush in picture.

7. A coral room. (a) Above the water or (b) underwater; Bermuda traingle (a1) crashed planes and everybody drowned or (b2) living underwater in a different world.

(b) CD - SKY OF HONEY

1. Prelude. Songs of birds that sounds like (a) soundwaves or (b) words.

2. Prologue. ?

3. An architect's dream. (a) Accident/ mistake in a painting that becomes the (b) best mistake.

4. The painter's link. (a) Painting that runs beause of the rain and becomes (b) wonderful sunset.

5. Sunset. (a) Sea or (b) Sky of honey.

6. Aerial. (a) Song of a blackbird or (b) is he/ she talking.

7. Somewhere in between. In between (a1) talk about what happened to 'we' or (b1) be silent about it; (a2) day or (b2) night; (a3) waxing or (b3) waning wave; (a4) singing a song or (b4) what the silence says; etc sleep-waking up, breathing in or out, night-morning.

8. Nocturn. (a) sea or (b) sky; (a2) dreaming or (b2) waking.

9. Aerial tal. I can't (a) hear a word you're (b) saying in your language.

BOOKLET
In the booklet the boat named 'Aerial' is literally in between the lyrics of (a) Sea of honey and (b) Sky of honey.

CD itself
When you look at the cover of the CD itself  (a) picture of cloths on a washing line. When the CD starts the picture becomes (b) one white dot as if it's in a washing machine.

Somewhere in between: invitation to be nondualistic
Well ... lots of duo's. Lots of things that seem black or white at first site but that become something in between when you "..." For me the key to the 'Aerial' CD is the song 'Somewhere in between'. "We" stand on the top of the highest hill and there we had "...". The 3 dot's represent enlightenment, a direct experience of unity or oneness of the world. The 3 dot's represent "that" what cannot be expressed in words. "That" what we should be silent about. "That" what is so beautiful. What does all that mean to us (better: me). What do you feel when you put your hand over the side of the boat (named 'aerial'), when you are literally in between the sky and under water? Then you are living your life in a boat. You can fly into the sky. You can dive into the sea. Whatever you do it's OK. Live life!

For me new. KT with 'This woman's work'

More on Kate Bush.

Today I checked out katebushnews and wikipedia concerning KT. I'm overwhelmed by all the details, all the links etc. Lots of songs I never heard of. So much I never read before and never realized before. There is a whole universe behind the music I listen to now and then. A world of "fans" who like this or that, who are hungry for an answer of their hero or goddess, who live in a world where Kate is the alpha and omega of the universe.

Well all that's my observation. It's the world of the "others". It's OK!

How about me? I'm hungry too but only for a while. Just lurking a bit. Listen to KT music. Feel and observe what it does to my emotions and thoughts. I loved this song: This Woman's Work. Never heard (of) before. I'm so greatfull of having found this! Thank you!

Music "fan": Kate was my first

Well ... what to say? I love music. It makes me laugh, smile and gives me tears. Only sometimes. Most of the time it just blows away ... while living my life. I love lots of music. My first love in music was Kate Bush. How I loved her when I heard her first two elpees when I was 16 or 17. I can't remember which songs I liked best back then. Now I like 'Symphony in blue' and 'Feel it'  best.

I'm not a "fan"! I grew up together with her. I love(d) her voice. Some emotions and lines of her became mine too. Did I got them from her or did I find the emotions underneath it myself living my life? I can't tell anymore. Most important: does it really care? I love and loved her because what she gave. I'm very very gratefull. Music? Life is more than music on a CD - thanks to Ana Carolina.